Update: I can shoot again. After little over 4 mo.s I feel more or less like myself again. Looking back on this thread , I can tell I was a tad "off". Short term memory good. Still have insomnia but had that anyways. I feel waaay more like a human being instead of like Bub the Zombie.
Cliche, but it really does take time. The words of encouragement and PMs by other M4Cers who had it like I did were very helpful and uplifting. Morale is pretty important when you feel retarded and slow. Never take your good health or health of mind for granted.
I dont want to go into detail but what happened was not really avoidable. Stuff happens. Some days it is simply your day in the cracker barrel. I'm burly and not yet 40 so that was on my side.
So to anyone else who finds this thread:
Keep a PMA (Positive Mental Attitude)
Don't shy away help/support from trusted friends and family. You literalky aren't at full capacity and having someone else double check you can help put your mind at ease.
Time is your friend. Dont rush. You are not Superman nor John Wayne. Also no caffeine.
As poor and hopeless as you may feel, it will end. You may just want to sit down and cry or you may just be blunt and detached and feel bad later. It happens, no shame in it. You may get a severe decrease/cessation in libido or interest in things you enjoyed You are just a human being. Anyone who would look down on that is probably not worth your time.
It's cumulative. Enough times and TBI will happen. Be as careful as you can. The unavoidable is unavoidable, but everything else is prevented with precaution.
Just my experiences, hope it helps others.
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