As some members here privately know I've been in a complicated situation, but they don't know that recently went against me in a whole new way. I am a private person, single dedicated full time father, but others should hear this for their greater good and maybe it helps me to vent in a safe place. For the last year I've thought of reaching out to this group because as the past has shown there are some very smart and insightful men here.
See I'm engaged to a woman 17 years younger than myself who is an ex-Playboy Playmate, and here we are at a recent wedding in South Philly:
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Look fun? Sound great? Well in many ways it has been to say the least, as she's also a big hearted, super-faithful homebody who only wants to be with me day and night always for the last two years. But guess what fellow gun owners? While she has a heart of gold and means well, she has slowly become mentally ill due to past trauma I am familiar with on a first hand basis because I have known her all her life, and now as a result I know full well she has developed schizophrenia...and I just got out of the county jail as a result.
Why am I sharing this after two years with her? Well long ago I was in a horrible fight with a very large animal in a parking lot while picking up my son from his mother's home in a crap town called Blackwood, NJ. After the incident and in order to protect the greater good I contemplated options, as even after the animal and myself embarrassingly beat the shit out of each other he was clearly bitter that at one point I got the best of him, and he wanted revenge. He threatened to burn my ex's apartment when I left and more. Therefore I was not happy.
A few here remember perhaps, but the bottom line is that I got advice that in the end I believe was immensely helpful and stayed with me to this day. John Wayne 777 was the standout and his words resonate with me forever.
So, may I humbly ask if anyone here has experience with Schizophrenia? You can find me at Schizophrenia.com talking in the family/caregiver section as of late, but most of those well meaning and equally hurting folks don't articulate things the way we often (but not always) do here. I know the odds are against and I may look foolish, but again this is not about me. I am ready to let her go no matter how much she loves me and likewise, but I'm not sure what's right or wrong anymore in that regard and would appreciate any sincere, educated feedback beyond words. As even if I do let her go, I only want the best for her even though she just landed me in the county for three days over nothing.
Just please try to have faith that I haven't lost it, there are smart people here that think like me and it's paid off before. Maybe just one more time...
Edit: I meant to add that all of my firearms and ammunition have been temporarily confiscated as a result, but I have a friend in a high place who is helping make things right.
https://family.schizophrenia.com/t/d...loved-one/4614
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