Originally Posted by
thepatriot2705
So my house is a nightmare. Mom was over today and about broke out in tears and wishes I would have some fun once in a while. Well, we got to talking and I spilled the beans about having an auditory processing disorder and the likely hood of me ever having friends was about zero.
She wants the best for me, but I continually fail. I don’t care but seeing her hurt because of my circumstances absolutely crushes me.
Truth be told, I wish I had never been born. Suicide is 100% wrong. I don’t know why. I didn’t ask to be brought into this world. It ****ing kills me seeing my mom unhappy because I’ve my shortcomings which I work so hard to address. It ****ing kills me even more because she wants to blame herself.
I end this post with this: **** the medical system. The medical system tired pushing me adderall as a kid. Turns out it’s not adhd, it’s an auditory processing disorder that mimics the symptoms of adhd. There would have been a slight hope to outgrow this if doctors considered it.