How do I give up on myself?

[26 Inf]

This is not an appropriate place for this kind of thread, sorry.

Go see your GP, tell him you are depressed, ask for a referral to a good therapist/counselor/etc and possibly something to stabilize your moods. Get connected with real people at a brewery, church, rec league, etc.

This is the best advice OP. Sorry things aren't going as well as you'd like, there are people who care and are willing to help. Go to see them. All we can do is offer platitudes, truth is that if you were willing or able to do the things folks have mentioned, you probably would have already. That is not a knock on you, it is reality, and it isn't your fault, it's simply the chemicals in your brain are out of whack.

My daughter, who I was semi-estranged from at the time, called me one day and asked to talk, I was complimented, but quickly realized she was depressed beyond my abilities. I told her she needed to go see someone, she said she didn't want to.

I talked to her, told her my experiences and showed her the Zoloft tablets I've taken everyday for the last 25 years. She didn't know. We talked some more and she agreed to get help. She's doing okay now, just like I am.

Go. Talk to a medical professional. Don't bet the longshot 'I can do it myself' it's not really you, it's brain chemicals, get help.

[Diamondback]

Hang in there. Keep trying new things, and as you do remember to start them with baby steps then work up.

I'm gonna share a little from my own background that may be overshare, but I do so in the hope of giving "you can get past this" encouragement. The autistic tend to be vulnerable to depressive cycles, and my usual way out is to master some new field whether a skill or a new subject of interest, devouring amounts of raw information that would make a less persistent mind choke. Anyway, late in high school and early in college, I had one that was more than a cycle, and I got lucky that my shrink wanted to work both meds as an early "back on track" to start and then gradually transition to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy techniques working with my college's Psych Department. Around this time, some buddies in Campus Security had been talking about getting me back into competitive pistol with them and some of their cop buddies... so I mentioned this to Doc H, he made sure I wasn't going to be out there alone (and at first wasn't going to have unsupervised access to iron), then told me "okay, that's your Support Group. It's against everything we usually recommend, but with your personality and this team standing behind you I think it'll work. Enjoy your Group Therapy and show me some X-rings next appointment!"

Completely unmedicated other than my caffeine dependency for almost 20 years now.

[Dr. Bullseye]

Like the title says, how can I quit believing in myself? It only sets me up for failure and disappointment. I’m not good at anything and have failed at obtaining a single dream of mine

Guy, I doubt this is the place to deal with a mid-life crisis. I will offer this, everyone who is old enough has gone through it---details vary but in general it is the same. You will get over it. Life is not perfect but life is what you make it.

[Mozart]

Like the title says, how can I quit believing in myself? It only sets me up for failure and disappointment. I’m not good at anything and have failed at obtaining a single dream of mine

Just wanted to follow up with you buddy.

How’ve you been doing lately?